I’m annoyed with myself. I really thought it could be easy, or at least possible, but it has not been so. I mean, I have tried to keep my mind where it was supposed to be, and I made an extra effort to keep on going to the group in my church… but it seems to hard for me. I simply cannot continue pretending nothing is going on while I break my heart with all the memories in my head. This situation has become simply unbearable, so I’ve decided to give me some time to let this smoke go down and I can continue.

I should say this has been a tough decision, because a piece of my heart is with those guys. However, if I really want to answer as I should (and want) I have to leave for a while and wait for my heart to heal. I don¡t know how much is this going to be, but I would like to come back. It’s been a long way so far and I’ve enjoyed that much to just leave. This -I think- is a round trip ticket.